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I Want To Move

It has been almost two years that I’ve been at my present church. And in all honesty, I love the post, the place, the people, the prospects, and so on. Yes, I miss my son who is in Dallas, but I can deal with that. Yes, everywhere has sandpaper people (see yesterday’s blog). Yes, there are no Chick-fil-A’s within 30 miles, but I can make the trip when I want.

So why would I write a blog saying I want to move?

I have found the church I am telling God I want to pastor at. Nestled in the mountains this little church that draws my heart.

I am not sure the size of congregation. It doesn’t look like it has much parking. I don’t even want to think about the heating bill. And Chick-fil-A would be a little further than 30 miles. But the view – the beauty – the majesty. I would think this puts me closer to God.

So, if any one has connections, text me and I’ll send my resume.

But is this the way we all are? Don’t we think we know what is best for us, so we “tell” God what we want. We place our demands. And when we don’t get what we want, we often get mad at God. Basically, we act like entitled little snots.

There is nothing wrong with dreaming, aspiring, preparing. But we are to produce where we are planted too. Don’t look past the beauty of where God has you stationed.

The most beautiful place to be is in the center of God’s will.

What can you do where God has you … right now?

Dreams of Vampires (repost due to technical issue)

It was macabre, eerie, and downright weird. I’m not reading any Anne Rice or Rowling’s. I haven’t watched any Twilight in a very long time. I did watch Kate Beckinsale in The Widow, but no vampires there … just life sucking human traffickers. I don’t lean the goth lifestyle.

So why have vampires haunted my night time subconscious thoughts?

A little back story. There are a group of humans in a world run by vamps. I am among the group of humans. The lead vampire, a woman, is rather polite. She realizes the symbiotic relationship that is needed, so she and her colony, cloud, flock (whatever she calls her group of vamps?) protects the humans and the humans provide food, infrastructure, and more.

A lone transient person is discovered. He had been beaten and left for dead. The humans nurse him back to life, only to later discover he is a vampire … an evil, monstrous vampire that believes all humans should be drunk dry. He challenges the female alpha and takes over.

I don’t know the outcome, I just wake up bewildered.

What did I eat that makes me think of such a story … on multiple nights at that?

The only thing I can think of is my leadership role at church. (I am ready not a few leadership books at the present). Now, don’t take this too far, I am just speculating. Don’t try to theologies or pick apart … it was just a dream.

The female alpha respects those under her care, she understand all have an important role. In comes a wolf in sheep clothes. Taken under the care of the flock but then turns on the flock. He demands his way, challenges the leadership, and takes over – leading to the destruction and eventual death.

Ouch! Am I the kind leader that allows a wolf to sneak in? Am I the controlling myopic monster that brings destruction and ruin?

I don’t know, but it makes me pay extra attention to the role God has given me. It makes me want to be a better leader, protecting those under my role of responsibilities, and preparing my family (church and personal) for all scenarios.

What role of leadership do you have? How serious are you taking it?

Maybe it will take a dream to shake you a little bit. It did me.

I Am Afraid … But why?

It was just a dream. Not real. I even know it was a dream. But I still feel the shivers down my back as if it was just as real. I woke up a bit afraid to face the day.

Is there a connection between dreams and reality? They say if you die in your dreams, you die in real life. How do they know? I mean if the person died in real life, how do they know what they were dreaming, or even if they were dreaming at all? But I get it – dreams make me shiver, happy, fearful, laugh, and a whole slew of other emotions.

Acts 2 tells us young men will see visions and old men will dream dreams … am I an old man?

So, the dream … my father was there. He was telling me that if he had to do it all over again, he would parent totally different. I didn’t get that. Maybe in regards to my siblings, but I turned out so well. (JK sibs). My father continued. We, his kids, were too violent – too angry at the world.

As I ponder … is it me reflecting on my father, how I miss him, or how I would love to see him? Or is it a reflecting on my parenting role, how I wish I could have been better, even regretting some scenarios I play over in my mind?

My son, 1200 miles away and preparing for major life changes as his wedding day approaches, called and we talked about some of his fears. His getting married I get the fears. Nothing about the one he is marrying, well, not too much about her, but mostly about the uncertainties of expectations we place on ourselves and so forth.

My wife, though she would never tell me her fears, has to be facing them. She places such high expectations on herself and her roles in life. She does not want to let people down, she wants to connect to excellence in work, relationships, ministry, and in her newest endeavor of her blog. (If you haven’t checked it out … go there)

Fears, we all have them. We may mask it in words like worry, concern, anxiety, etc. but they are around.

So what do we do? What did I do this morning? Me, I wrote a blog about it while trying to process it all. And in the end, I came up with the same advice I gave my son, and so many others. I remind myself …

God did not give us the spirit of fear, but of power and love and a sound mind. And the first in this list is power … the power to overcome fears is part of that.

So, get into the Word, trust in the Lord, and remember He is always with you. He provides, protects, and empowers. He loves me … always.

That’s comforting. That drives away fears. So today, grab hold and don’t let go of that truth.